Sit on a TACK!

Oh man~this is a very hard post to type.  I wouldn't by any means say that I am a "holier-than-thou" girl, but I do try to live my life daily for my King.  I have been actively involved in the Women's Ministry at my church for many years, and joined the Leadership Team about four years ago.  I have loved being on the team and helping to fascilitate God's will through this ministry.  The bible studies that I have attended and taught, have changed me.  This Spring, we planned to start a new study on the book of Nehemiah by Kelly Minter.  I loved teaching her study on Ruth, and was excited about this study.  I got my book...and we are now on week 5~and I went to my first Wednesday night class since before the study started.  I have done absolutely zilch!  I am being completely vulnerable here by saying that I have put it on the WAY back burner.  I have missed it, hated not being apart of my group, but we have had a lot going on.  I am not making our adoption journey an excuse, but we have had full plates.  Honestly, I would forfeit a baby over my relationship with my Jesus.  He comes first and I want Little Miracle to feel the same way.  I am not saying that I have lived life on the wild side and gone nuts, but I haven't been as active with a daily bible study.  I know that it is SO important for every aspect of my life.  The amazing thing is that my Jesus is a loving and forgiving~and in His arms is the only place that I go and don't have to feel judged.  Thank you, Father!  When I went to our team meeting last night, one of the leaders and dear friend said that she kept thinking of me.  Another sweet friend said that tonight's video was about adoption and asked if I was staying for bible study.  I had planned on it and turning in my book since I haven't done any of the homework with the study...however I went and got my book out and said that I wanted to do the study!  When it was time for church to start I came with an open mind and heart.  This past week's lessons were on the joy of the Lord.  We sang the oldie vacation bible school song, "I've got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart...if the devil doesn't like it he can sit on a tack" song.  Well as far as I am concerned...he can sit on a tack.  Another sister, Ramona, heard me talking about this attack that Satan has had on my heart.  After the evening was over, just after an interview about a mother who adopted from China on the video, Ramona said that she feels led to pray with me.  I said of course and agreed that I was comfortable having all the women pray over me.  All the women in the study gathered around me a prayed a beautiful, tear-jerking prayer.  I love my church, women's ministry, and how God works purposefully in everyone.  Needless to say, I am going to get back on track, and borrow the sessions that I have missed to get caught up. 

Thanks for hearing me and maybe you will be encouraged by this post~